Keep going - there is still so much out there for you.
If your biggest achievement this year was simply making it this far, simply waking up in the morning when you didn't want to face the day, simply surviving - that is something to celebrate, too. That is also an accomplishment. Please whatever you do, don't compare your reality to someone else's highlight reel. Don't be ashamed of the wars your soul has fought in order to save yourself Keep finding the things that make you believe in your healing, keep surrounding yourself with the people who make you believe in goodness and hope and the beauty of being alive, keep trusting that this is all worthwhile, that this is all growing you into the person who harbors the softest kind of strength. Just be gentle with yourself, and never forget that even the smallest step forward is still a step towards who you are becoming. Keep going - there is still so much out there for you.